happy dance!

I am currently sitting in my room at Edelweiss in Garmish. This place is BEAUTIFUL! I am so glad that I got the chance to have this experience. I have met some great women, Kinsy has found all kinds of new “friends” and I am seeing beautiful landscape. The mountains here are amazing. I am used to seeing mountains being from Arizona, but those mountains to not even began to compare to the Bavarian Alps. These mountains here seem to jet straight up and go on FOREVER! I really have not seen the top of them since it has been so cloudy here. The resort itself is so pretty and so relaxing. I was scheduled tomorrow for a day trip to Munich and I was sooo excited to go there and see all the stuff on the tour and get lots of pics. Unfortunately, Jack has been very congested since before we left and he is just not getting better. He is having a really hard time at the CDC and just not sleeping or eating for them. So instead of going out I will be staying at the resort with my munchkins. I am hoping to spend the day swimming and maybe if the weather cooperates a walk around Garmish. This get away was just what I needed. I am hoping that this renews me and gives me that little boost that I need to keep going! And I do have to throw in that the marriage classes I am taking are great! The guy giving them is so funny and he totally speaks the truth. I really hope when Branden gets home we have the chance to take this together.. I really think he would enjoy it also. But now it is time for me to slip into my hotel bed and lay my head down for a few winks!

Published in: on March 28, 2011 at 9:19 pm  Leave a Comment  

Sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy :)

All I wanted to write today….

I love sunshine, I love the warmth we are finally getting. I love being able to wear t-shirts outside. I love taking my kids out without them freezing and their little noses turning red. I love hearing the eis man coming by our building. I am so happy that it seems that spring is finally in Baumholder! May the sun keep shining and the temp get warmer and warmer! Gonna be time to plant some flowers here soon, can’t wait to see the beautiful posies on my window ledge! 🙂

Happy Spring! 🙂

Published in: on March 24, 2011 at 1:23 pm  Comments (1)  

Hug a Hero Daddy Doll and kiss containers

Here are the pics of the kiss containers and the Daddy hug a hero dolls that I said I would post…

 (From the top – Hug a hero daddy doll, sides, front, top and back of Kiss Containers.)

Published in: on March 15, 2011 at 7:31 pm  Leave a Comment  

oh sunshine, how I love you!

It is absolutely amazing what a little sunshine and a little warmth can do for the soul! Today was amazing and a great glimpse of what the summer is here in Baumholder! This weather was just what we needed, the kids were out getting fresh air, I got to sit around and socialize with friends… and Kinsy’s favorite part of the afternoon, the Eis man at the park! God that ice cream is sooooo good!  So bad for the diet, but delicious! I guess tomorrow’s walk to the lake will have to have a little more umph behind it to work off the spaghetti ice and chocolate sauce and whip cream!

(that was my delicious Eis!) Kinsy managed to get herself 2 ice cream cones today! I bought her one, then she played the sweet baby girl role and got Kylie to buy her another one, that girl really knows what she is doing!  Then we came home and got ourselves dinner and baths and the kids were in bed by 7! That is what I call a great day! The only thing that could have made today better was a phone call from my hubby, but I did get a text from him today and he said that he loved and missed us, so I will take that! I hope the rest of this deployment keeps going this way… so far, besides Jack’s late night parties, it has been pretty manageable!

Published in: on March 15, 2011 at 7:13 pm  Leave a Comment  

slipping into a new routine…

So it has been awhile since I did a post, so many things have happened! Branden is now bravely fighting for our country and the kids and I are here trying to get into a new routine. It has gone much smoother than I anticipated. I think Kinsy is having the hardest time with it. She misses her daddy so much and asks about him every day. She has a hug a hero doll, it is a doll that is dressed in acu’s (camo) and on the face of the doll you can put a picture in it, so the doll has her daddy’s face. That doll now goes EVERYWHERE with us! I don’t mind, it is kind of nice to see his face all the time. We are getting into our new routine of blowing kisses at the moon every night before bed (to daddy) and catching the kisses he blows and smashing them into our heart! 🙂 Then we take a Hershey kiss out of our kiss container and get our kiss from daddy. Our kiss containers hold 350 kisses per container, one for each night he will be gone (minus R&R). I feel like it is a way for Kinsy to have a visual on how long he will be gone. I am in the process of decorating our kiss containers, so as soon as I am done I will post pics of that and the hug a hero doll!

I have decided that I am going to take this year and work on me. Of course I will be taking care of my children in the process, but I want to start feeling good about myself again. I have started to talk to someone about the anxiety I have had since my mom has passed and that does seem to be helping, with some medication right now also. I also have found a friend that will watch the kids every morning and I have been going to the gym. I will be honest, I am sore right now! But the other honest thing is… I like it. I like to have these sore muscles, I like the feel right when I am leaving the gym of being fatigued and sweaty and sore. It makes me feel like I am doing something! I have started changing my diet to a healthier diet. I think giving up the sodas is gonna be easier than I thought, now the EIS might be a whole ‘nother story! Luckily the EIS truck has not come down my street yet, I am not sure that I can say no to that temptation! The kids and I are scheduled to get away for a few days at the end of the month. We are going to a resort and I am going to take some marriage classes aimed at the spouse left here during a deployment and also some things for the kids and I to do together. Plus the photos of the resort are beautiful! I can not wait to go learn, hang out with my kids and relax and swim and take pictures with my new camera! I also have been playing with my cricut and starting on my scrap booking stuff. I have not taken time for me for a really long time. I find that doing this right now is also making me a better mom. I feel like I am more patient with the kids. It is even helping me get over some of my anxiety problems. I am too tired at the end of the night to do the ritual cleaning and to not be able to sleep because of the things I think. Plus this time since he has left is already FLYING  by, I can only hope it keeps going this way.

I have talked to him a few times and I love the sound of his voice. I thought it would make it harder when I talked to him, I thought I would cry every time we hung up not knowing when I would speak to him again. It does hurt and there is almost a constant lump in my chest. But I want him to know I am strong, I have this under control.  I want him to come home to healthy, happy and adjusted children. I also want him to come home to a smokin’ hot wife! lol There is nothing I can do to change this situation, I knew that this was not just a possibility, but would happen, when we signed up. So I can’t sit and keep crying the blues. I just have to wake up every morning, say my prayer for his safety that day and then take my children through the routine of their day the best I can. And in this year I believe Branden and I will come out even stronger than when he left and I believe I will be a healthier person also!

Published in: on March 9, 2011 at 7:23 pm  Leave a Comment