life on the move

So I am struggling, I feel the need to write on my blog, but about what I am really not sure. This time of night that I am writing is always the hardest but also can be the best part of my day. It is the time from when I put the kids in bed until I go to bed. Some days I have so much to do in this time, others it gives me too much time to think. I really don’t want to write another post about the deployment, even though the reality is THAT is my life. We have been super busy, just not anything real interesting to write about.  I know everyone gets tired of the kiddisms… but that sometimes is the only thing that makes me smile through out the day! Kinsy has a few new funnies – her new way to say strawberries sounds a lot like she is saying charlieberries. I love it and I make her say it over and over! She has figured out that she will get in trouble for saying shut up. So she has gone to saying shut down. I am really not sure how to respond to this since she technically is not saying shut up, but that is definitely what she means. The other day I told her that she was pushing my buttons, she then informed me that I push hers all the time! I also was so frustrated I told her I was going to give her away, instead of stopping the bad behavior she told me to go ahead! She said she wanted to be given away! Jack is getting VERY clingy, he is definitely a momma’s boy. But he is totally cruising now. He can walk around the table and he can walk down the couches. He has also decided that he is brave enough to grab from the table to the couch and back. I don’t think it will be long before he is cruising around on his own and I honestly can not wait for him to walk. I also have started to plan his first birthday, we are going to do a cowboy themed party! I just can’t wait! As for me, I have been busy being mommy. But I have been finding time to still be working out. I have been going to the gym and I am up to 3.5 miles on the elliptical and doing the machines. Today I started doing hip hop abs and I loved it! I am totally gonna get my skinny on before Branden comes home! NOt much else to talk about so I guess I will leave with a pic or two!

Published in: on April 18, 2011 at 6:53 pm  Leave a Comment  

prayers needed..

Yesterday this deployment became very, very real. Not that we all were not feeling it, but it is easy to pretend they are off on some training exercise. Yesterday was the first time, and hopefully the last time, that a red message alert came over the computer. A red message informs us (after the family has been notified) that there has been a casualty in our community. Unfortunately, two brave soldiers lost their lives on Monday. I read that one was married with two small children, the other there was no information. My brain did not know how to wrap around this yesterday. I cried for the loss of two of our men, I cried for their families whose lives are now forever changed, I cried for the realization that this is REAL this is not a training exercise. I couldn’t wrap my head around the thought that while I was out running errands, on this very same post some family was getting the news that they were never going to see their loved one again. I know there have been lots of brave souls lost, but this is close to home. These are the same guys that left with my husband. Branden reassures me every phone call that he is ok, not to worry and he will be home soon, but did these other soldiers do the same thing to their wives? I am fully aware that this is their jobs, that this is a risk we all took when they joined…. but that doesn’t make my heart ache any less for all of those families who have lost a loved one. I wish I could just give them all a hug, I don’t know how they feel and I hope that I never do, but I can tell them how sorry I am and how grateful we all are to their soldier. It isn’t much, I know……..

*** post interrupted by skype call from my hubby!****

Now I have lost my train of thought…. so I will just end saying, please keep our soldiers and their families in your prayers. Both sacrifice so much. And to the families of Sgt. Burgess and Sgt. Lammerts, you are in my heart and in my prayers. If anyone knows them and there is anything I can do for these families… please, please let me know.

Published in: on April 6, 2011 at 12:16 pm  Comments (2)